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I am a husband, father, minister, and writer.

Writers Expanding the Spectrum of Acceptable Images

From one of the most insightful essays I’ve read recently.

While it remains a human truth that people live in terms of images, it is also true that where there are no good images there will always be bad ones.  And the images that, day after day, condition all of us are mostly drawn from the extreme, unmetaphorical range of the visual spectrum, evoking no recognition of moral complexity or depth.  We have come to accept the mundane image, and its lack of human vitality, as only what should be expected, and are sometimes even bothered by the passionate, the perfected, the aspiration toward the ideal.  The general culture has forged a kind of unconscious consensus with respect to the proper precincts in which beauty, and therefore truth and goodness, may be located.  Given this reality, it seems to me that there should arise a challenge to this status quo from within those communities of writers whose job it is to expand the spectrum of acceptable images steeped in moral and metaphysical meanings.  Opportunities for such expansions can come from the most unexpected of places.

From James A. McPherson’s “Workshopping Lucius Mummis,” (p. 306-307) in A Region Not Home

A Prayer In Anticipation of A Friend’s Son

I offer this prayer today as we await and expect the arrival of Joseph Byron Durham, III:

Dear God,

Grant Byron the steady gaze to see everything good thing you do today.  Make him able to live fully, to feel fully, from joy to fear to awe to surprise to gladness to love.  May he feel everything between these and other stirring movements.  Give him the ability to help Karen and grant that he might be filled with every necessary gift for all that awaits.  Help him listen and act with grace and tenderness and with more love than his best actions before today.  Give him gifts for this day and for each day following.  Walk out the paths before him, and when he looks ahead, let him see your footprints in every possible direction.  Shine light in dark places for the rest of his life because his life is different after Joe comes.  It is already different with the baby on the other side of all that skin and muscle and warmth, waiting to come down through all those contractions.  Hover over Byron so that he might sense you in places that he hasn’t.  Give him witnesses of your abiding, unconditional  love.  Convince him again and again that what he does matters greatly but that your love comes despite his best or his worst.

For Karen, give her a full sense of your nearness.  Keep company with her and grant that she may feel closer to you—and not only to her son or her husband—than she ever has.  Pull her into the experience of labor.  Shower her with good words and impressions and nudges and pictures as she does what is the tough work of receiving this next joyous gift from you.  Sprinkle her throughout this day with more than hope for the good future you’ve assured.  Help her to receive every help and gesture as from your hand.  Give her strong gratitude.  Give her ever stronger peace that is unshakable.  Through the movements of this day, give her vision for all the tomorrows you’ve prepared for her, for them.  Inspire her.  Build in her increasing courage.  May her breaths be prayers.  Each one a tiny theophany.  Grant her the splendid and sparkling blessing of closeness with you, her God and her Rock.  May she and Byron be strength for one another.  May Karen get all the grace she needs for every next step.

Will you bless Joe with all the memories necessary to live the rest of his life with and for you?  Collect in his ears, his heart, and his spirit, the voice of your spirit, the abiding comfort of your company, and the life that always comes from you.  Send him into this side of life with increasing joy and purpose, both coming from you.  You have counted his days before this day.  May even he come knowing that in unsearchable, deep ways.  Lay within his belly an appetite for you and your things.  Lift his vision to you, even as he looks through the good models of his parents and his family and his friends.  May he know that his life has been surrounded by words spoken in your ears about him.  May he never feel alone or unloved or unwanted.  Grant that he will accept all the love you’ve provided.  May he follow the instructions you give, through his parents and through every other good gift that comes from you.  Protect him from the plans of all his enemies.  Make them your enemies because you win all your battles.  Kiss him righteousness and bravery and set his face in the direction of fruitfulness.  Be his present and his future.

In Christ’s name,

Amen.

A Prayer In Anticipation of A Friend’s Son

I offer this prayer today as we await and expect the arrival of Joseph Byron Durham, III:

Dear God,

Grant Byron the steady gaze to see everything good thing you do today.  Make him able to live fully, to feel fully, from joy to fear to awe to surprise to gladness to love.  May he feel everything between these and other stirring movements.  Give him the ability to help Karen and grant that he might be filled with every necessary gift for all that awaits.  Help him listen and act with grace and tenderness and with more love than his best actions before today.  Give him gifts for this day and for each day following.  Walk out the paths before him, and when he looks ahead, let him see your footprints in every possible direction.  Shine light in dark places for the rest of his life because his life is different after Joe comes.  It is already different with the baby on the other side of all that skin and muscle and warmth, waiting to come down through all those contractions.  Hover over Byron so that he might sense you in places that he hasn’t.  Give him witnesses of your abiding, unconditional  love.  Convince him again and again that what he does matters greatly but that your love comes despite his best or his worst.

For Karen, give her a full sense of your nearness.  Keep company with her and grant that she may feel closer to you—and not only to her son or her husband—than she ever has.  Pull her into the experience of labor.  Shower her with good words and impressions and nudges and pictures as she does what is the tough work of receiving this next joyous gift from you.  Sprinkle her throughout this day with more than hope for the good future you’ve assured.  Help her to receive every help and gesture as from your hand.  Give her strong gratitude.  Give her ever stronger peace that is unshakable.  Through the movements of this day, give her vision for all the tomorrows you’ve prepared for her, for them.  Inspire her.  Build in her increasing courage.  May her breaths be prayers.  Each one a tiny theophany.  Grant her the splendid and sparkling blessing of closeness with you, her God and her Rock.  May she and Byron be strength for one another.  May Karen get all the grace she needs for every next step.

Will you bless Joe with all the memories necessary to live the rest of his life with and for you?  Collect in his ears, his heart, and his spirit, the voice of your spirit, the abiding comfort of your company, and the life that always comes from you.  Send him into this side of life with increasing joy and purpose, both coming from you.  You have counted his days before this day.  May even he come knowing that in unsearchable, deep ways.  Lay within his belly an appetite for you and your things.  Lift his vision to you, even as he looks through the good models of his parents and his family and his friends.  May he know that his life has been surrounded by words spoken in your ears about him.  May he never feel alone or unloved or unwanted.  Grant that he will accept all the love you’ve provided.  May he follow the instructions you give, through his parents and through every other good gift that comes from you.  Protect him from the plans of all his enemies.  Make them your enemies because you win all your battles.  Kiss him righteousness and bravery and set his face in the direction of fruitfulness.  Be his present and his future.

In Christ’s name,

Amen.

Things Worth Remembering

When we eat together it’s a custom for us to pray before we eat.  I don’t technically bless food.  I think Someone else does that.  For me and for us in my house, praying is a way of giving thanks for what we have.

When I pray, I usually say something like, “Thank you, God, for this food and for every hand that brought it to us.”  Sometimes I pause to quickly consider just how many people touched what’s on our table.  It takes a lot of people to bring us some of things we eat.  Either way, I believe prayers of thanksgiving for food should be brief.  I also believe we should offer new prayers for desserts, but that’s another post.

For fun, we’ve been giving Bryce the chance to choose who he thinks should pray.  We’ve done this at his bed time as well. Usually he picks mommy.  I think he likes her prayers more than mine.  I’m fine with that!  I pray a lot in my work.

Three weeks ago, Bryce said that he would pray.  And he did.  It was the most delightful moment for me and Dawn.  She was near tears.  I carried a smile as wide as the table.  He bowed his head and followed the normal course of things.  He thanked God for his cornbread, his juice, and whatever else we were eating that night.

I never want to forget that.

Denzel Washington’s Preaching A Sermon Worth Hearing

The other week my wife’s supervisor, Eva, told me that I should see Flight.  Knowing I am a pastor, she said it’d be good for me to see it.  So I saw it.  It was a chunk of Sabbath day, right before I picked up Dawn and Bryce from work.

I usually spend those weekly observances, looking for ways to locate the Source of my work so that when I reengage, I have something to bring.  That means, on Mondays, I’m looking for art exhibits, photography, film, and other evocative creations to turn me toward the Creator.  I’m looking and listening to do less and see more.

My thanks to Eva because her suggestion became part of Monday’s celebration for me when I saw Flight.  Each actor’s performance, the story itself, and the images throughout the movie combined to turn my mental and spiritual wheels.  There was a clear sense of the Divine for me, something that, for some reason, is simpler when I’m around aircraft.  Perhaps it’s the height or the upward motion.  Perhaps it’s those early Sunday school lessons returning to convince me that heaven relates to that vertical movement pulling us toward the heavenly host.  The movie took me in, and I boarded the experience hoping to enjoy the story, to see something provocative enough to make me think harder about substance abuse and redemption.

The cockpit on the screen made me nervous.  The plane was aged and I thought back to my flight class at U of I, when I was in that simulator and, then, when I was behind a Cessna 172, listening to the air traffic controller run through directions too fast to understand.  I appreciated the story from the beginning because I had a sliver of experience pushing throttle and pressing a rudder pedal.  I have also experienced parts of the emotional context of film, knowing a little about substance abuse in the lives of people in my life.

Like every one of “Denzel Washington’s” films (what does it say that we pay attention to the main character when we write these pieces?), I was enriched for having watched a movie.  Me and Dawn never meet disappointment when watching his films.  This one left me just off enough to be empathetic, to reconnect with struggles and pains that are commonplace, connections necessary for my work and my life.

Then, today, I read this review at Religion Dispatch.  Read it if you’ve seen the film and are considering a response intersecting with theology, particularly relative to Pentecostalism.  Maybe you were put off by the explicitly theological and biblical images.  Maybe the covert messages bordered too close to overt for you.  This will give you another perspective.

The article weaves in a part of Denzel Washington’s story, something I did not know: He received a prophecy as a young actor where the person told him he would preach to millions.  The article runs through a quick history of Brother Washington’s work in order to say, I think with the actor, that his career is the fulfillment of prophecy.  The film is explicit, in many ways.  There’s nothing you haven’t seen if you’ve watched New Jack City or Mo Betta Blues or if you’ve looked in the mirror every now and then.  But the material is explicit.

It’s always a stretch to call things so material and carnal and touchable divine.  Smarter people can articulate where that bold disconnect started and what maintains it.  It’s sad that the sexual, the physical, the ordinary, bodily stuff of skin and beauty and hair and proclivities have such a hard time turning us back to the creative Artist behind us.  I’ve known many believing people who press hard to push the physical from the divine, as if Jesus did not honor the material when he took flesh.  Brother Washington’s work is profane in that sense.  I imagine it’s unspeakable for some of my mentors in the faith to accept a claim that the moving picture that is Flight could spur a viewer God-ward.  Regardless of Denzel Washington’s pronounced and faithful Christian experience in a pentecostal church.  Regardless of the promoted role of the body, the emotions, and the mind and what those three combine to form in us.

Still, in a way, his profane language (and behavior) in this film is “preaching to the masses.”  And considering the body of his work, I’d say that the man not only has an excellent last name, but he has a powerful way of proclaiming truths in accessible, jarring, and captivating ways.  Of course, it’s even more interesting to learn that all of this just may be a fulfillment of words spoken at an earlier time in his ears.

I’d love to know what you think, if you’ve seen the film or if you read the RD post.

Jumping In Sin & Looking For Grace That’s Gone

Bruce Robertson sent me something on Facebook that, coupled with the unrelenting reports about David Petraeus, got me thinking specifically about leaders who fall in and around the Christian community.  The post pushed a basic question: What’s the role of that community to those leaders who fall?

These sentences provide a sense of the post:

Sadly, in many cases, when it comes to restoring a fallen leader, the offender’s depiction of evangelical denominational or church discipline, feels more like John 19 where the Jewish leaders request for all the men next to Jesus on the cross to “have the legs broken [as well].” This is a far different response than Jesus’, saying to the woman caught in adultery, “Neither do I condemn you, go and leave your life of sin” (John 8:11).

The result of this law-driven approach to sin is not pretty. Because of this, the evangelical culture dictates that when our worse moments befall us, we must hide. There is a real doubt that we will be lead home safely through our struggle.

I come back to this concern every year or so.  Unfortunately the experiences of leaders keep the question before us.  How do we respond as a Christian community when leaders in that community fail?  Is there a difference between the church’s response to a leader who fails and to a non-leader who does?  I keep thinking that there is a clear answer in the scriptures about this, but there isn’t.  To be clear, this is because when scripture handles the matter of sin and sins and sinning, it doesn’t split the responses to those who are in leadership roles from those who are not leaders.  If anything, there is a pervasive sense that every reader who takes up the dangerous documents of our scriptures is in for it, is a sinner, and is eligible for the free, audacious, and incredible gift of grace and all that comes with it.

There are mentions of how to handle people who have sinned, but those instances are not focused on leaders; they’re open for everyone.  There is a clear implication that sins should be addressed, faced, confessed, repented of, and turned away from.  There is a reasonable expectation within the scriptures that the consequences of sins live well beyond the times of confession and repentance–again, for leaders like Moses and for hardly named people in crowds.  There is also a long theme of forgiveness, and that theme would certainly include the leaders and the non-leaders within the church.

But it fascinates me that people who are led often require that leaders be exploited and punished, even when those leaders have spent themselves 1) protecting those they lead from such ungracious behavior and 2) promoting a Person who gives grace to the sinner.  There is this weird and intense curiosity with a leader’s sins, like in Petraeus’s case or in the last preacher to fall, and this continual pressing into the details of what happened, right before there is a slicing off of any chance that leader would have to rejoin the community.  There’s an insightful psychological treatment in that, one I can’t give, but it has to do with pedestalizing people in positions a) they don’t belong in, b) we’ll never really get into ourselves, and c) which are properly designed for the Divine.

Sometimes I think we should describe the Church as place where people jump in sin, where leaders never ever ever get up to speak or preach or inspire without the strings of sin attached to us.  Sometimes I think that we should wear signs that say “Fire me now because while I didn’t do the big three or the big five or the big seven, I definitely sinned at least sixteen times before I stood up in front of you.”  At least it would open a conversation about sin and grace and leadership and restoring everyone to relationship with God.

Sometimes I wonder if churches and faith communities are really communities of grace.  When the people who lead them, be they paid staff or not, cannot truly receive “grace to help” in our times of need, then what’s happening in our gatherings may not be graceful at all.  Sure, that doesn’t mean that anything goes.  It’s never meant that.  To think that is to read a different Book.  Indeed a place of grace is a place with clear expectations about the gift offered.  But would you agree that we are pushed to look for grace and to tell the truth when we don’t find it?

Pastors & Elections

I happily admit that I grew up in a church where it was usual for the church (i.e., a large group of people) to take on political matters.  We heard things said about politics and about political leaders.  We may have heard things about who to vote for and who not to vote for.  While that was less common, I do remember a comment about staying out of the bushes at one point.  I was in seminary at the time and that got a chuckle from my prof and classmates.  It was both a homiletical success and a political statement.

I’m not up to preach this weekend.  But I remember my feeling sitting in church the week after Barack Obama was first elected to the presidency.  I remember the appetite I had for being in worship, the expectation I had for whatever the pastor would say.  I remember the disappointment–even though it was laced with understanding of our diverse congregation–when nothing was said about the historic choice.

I’m not expecting an acknowledgement of the election this time around.  I’ve already celebrated in my own way what I feel like can be a useful moment (or series of moments) in the nation’s history, even while the country is divided both by political personalities and the policies to match and a long long list of other things most folks are unwilling to mention.

Still, I have a questions for you.

If you attend church, would you like to hear your pastor speak specifically about the election?  Is it something you’d look forward to, something you’d expect, something you’d be disturbed by?

Is there a place, any place, for your preacher’s comments in the midst of the, now, post-election season?

Soak This Up

I need you to read and soak something up.  There is so much in these words worth reading over and over.  I’m thinking about particular sisters, one of which is my beloved, when I read and re-post this.

Professor Tamura Lomax holds a mirror off of the academe’s bathroom and turns it to us, whether or not we’re in those hallowed halls.  She’s offers it up for reflection and, necessarily, criticism.  Her voice is sustained in the midst of the sweltering and exhausting enemies of her soul as a scholar and communicator of truth, talking and writing and doing her thing in her skin.  She’s grants us a view behind an often unseen veil.  Like good truth-tellers, she’s clear.  And she makes me think about my own role in junk like this.

So, alphabetized, this reflection is for Aja, Blessing, Dawn, Ghana, and Michelle and for the academic contexts you’re currently in, considering stepping into, or pulling yourselves from.  The rest of us will love you and befriend you and be strong for you.  And we’ll use our strengths to be a revitalizing community for you that “loves you into” working and writing and thinking and doing your thing.

Read the full post here.